嘿，大家好，我是静，一名简单主义者
上人类学时，想到了自己的笔名：静 (Jean)， 或是：哲静；为什么要选它或它们？就是感觉喽！“哲”字有性格， “静”字很纯真，适合我吗！有性格又纯真！哈哈！还有还有，我是“简单主义者”
哇！突然间多了那么多身份呢？哈哈！因为我是世上独一无二的“哲静”。。。谢谢，谢谢！
Thursday, 31 January 2008
23.10.2007
我很茫然地翻着，找着，自己也不知道自己在做什么！只知道，我不见了很多回忆的证据，很多朋友给的祝福语和卡片，很多朋友曾给的关心，很多朋友的友谊，很多朋友的过去，我弄不见了！
我不是一个值得交的朋友，我从来没有关心过周围的朋友，我从来没有在意过朋友们给我的支持与关心，我从来没有告诉过她们，她们是我的朋友，我太不值得别人祝福！
太多朋友，不一定是一件好事！走在走廊上，不停有人跟你打招呼，不一定是一件好事！很多人走过来跟你讲话，不一定是一件好事！很多人能叫出你的名字，可是你又不认识她，不是一件好事！因为，我忽略了我真正的－朋友！
我弄丢了很多封信，我弄丢了很多张朋友祝福的小纸条，我弄丢了学姐学妹们的支持信，我弄丢了很多回忆，我让很多朋友很难过，我让最疼我的学姐和老师遗憾，我很不是人！
继续不停地找着找着，发现，我自己不见了！朋友曾经问我，“我是你故事中的过客，还是其中的角色？”当时，我沉默；很失败吧？朋友曾经告诉我“你是我的知己”当时我沉默；很糟糕吧？我应该立刻告诉她们，是的，你们都是我故事中的一个重要角色。。。很难再找到像你们一样的朋友了！
我把以前的照片都放好！我把以前的回忆都锁在一个有密码的箱子里，让它永远都在那里；没有人能够从我这里拿走这一点一点的故事！
我不是一个值得交的朋友，但是我不会再让这些事再发生的，我会为任何一个朋友做任何一件事情，为我以前的傲慢，作出付出！谢谢你们曾经的确认我的存在！不会再滥交朋友了！你们都是我很重要的朋友，我会珍惜的！
这都只因为,我曾经是一个没有朋友的小学生...
我不是一个值得交的朋友，我从来没有关心过周围的朋友，我从来没有在意过朋友们给我的支持与关心，我从来没有告诉过她们，她们是我的朋友，我太不值得别人祝福！
太多朋友，不一定是一件好事！走在走廊上，不停有人跟你打招呼，不一定是一件好事！很多人走过来跟你讲话，不一定是一件好事！很多人能叫出你的名字，可是你又不认识她，不是一件好事！因为，我忽略了我真正的－朋友！
我弄丢了很多封信，我弄丢了很多张朋友祝福的小纸条，我弄丢了学姐学妹们的支持信，我弄丢了很多回忆，我让很多朋友很难过，我让最疼我的学姐和老师遗憾，我很不是人！
继续不停地找着找着，发现，我自己不见了！朋友曾经问我，“我是你故事中的过客，还是其中的角色？”当时，我沉默；很失败吧？朋友曾经告诉我“你是我的知己”当时我沉默；很糟糕吧？我应该立刻告诉她们，是的，你们都是我故事中的一个重要角色。。。很难再找到像你们一样的朋友了！
我把以前的照片都放好！我把以前的回忆都锁在一个有密码的箱子里，让它永远都在那里；没有人能够从我这里拿走这一点一点的故事！
我不是一个值得交的朋友，但是我不会再让这些事再发生的，我会为任何一个朋友做任何一件事情，为我以前的傲慢，作出付出！谢谢你们曾经的确认我的存在！不会再滥交朋友了！你们都是我很重要的朋友，我会珍惜的！
这都只因为,我曾经是一个没有朋友的小学生...
只因为我想做现实中的自己, 至少不会饿死
很久没有用华文了,一个字就要了我十秒
又一个人躲在late night
听到青蛙叫
又要胡思乱想了
看, 再也用不了华文写下思想
只因为, 我学会了逃避
为了面子, 故称厌倦
又一个人躲在late night
听到青蛙叫
又要胡思乱想了
看, 再也用不了华文写下思想
只因为, 我学会了逃避
为了面子, 故称厌倦
really got little bit sad of cant become a research assistant
erm, when i knew i have been chosen for the research assistant, i was suprised and happy! and in the 1st and 2nd training, i have put a lot of effort in it! really sad i miss the chance! i really hope, i can be a real and professional research assistant! i hope i got another chance!
Thursday, 24 January 2008
stupid
stress stress stress stress stress stress
stress stress stress stress stress stress
stress stress stress stress stress stress
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stress stress stress stress stress stress
stress stress stress stress stress stress
relax relax relax relax relax
relax relax relax relax relax
stress stress stress stress stress stress
stress stress stress stress stress stress
stress stress stress stress stress stress
stress stress stress stress stress stress
stress stress stress stress stress stress
relax relax relax relax relax
relax relax relax relax relax
I am tired, mentally tired
i am ssoooooooooooo tired, not physically, mentally... i want to sleep but i sleep too much ...i am stress-ing
Monday, 21 January 2008
Walau leh, my streamyx really "help" me a lot
online-ing in mamak now! oil and oil, makan and makan, streaming here and there, dua belas ringgit... terima kasih...! my lovely streamyx really "help" me a lot! i pay RM 88 per month and it serve me like that! HAHA, so funny, need help everyday to sign up my tutorial! oh my gosh!
erm, wondering who is reading my blog... seems like a lot of people, kindly, anyone willing to tell me?
oh no, lately really happen lots of things, figuring the oversea stuff, overcoping my assignment stuff and i found something, you know, i becoming lazier and lazier since i find out i am going to continue my further study (2nd year) on sept! see...
erm... sis scolding me as i am not doing my homework, k, dear (myself la), gambate o, always be with you
erm, wondering who is reading my blog... seems like a lot of people, kindly, anyone willing to tell me?
oh no, lately really happen lots of things, figuring the oversea stuff, overcoping my assignment stuff and i found something, you know, i becoming lazier and lazier since i find out i am going to continue my further study (2nd year) on sept! see...
erm... sis scolding me as i am not doing my homework, k, dear (myself la), gambate o, always be with you
IMPORTANT ANNOUNCEMENT !!!
Study Hard Period, Sorry to say "NO" to "chaser"!!
REMINDING MYSELF: NO DATING PLEASE!!!
REMINDING MYSELF: NO DATING PLEASE!!!
Monday, 7 January 2008
I am alive? Shouldn't be!
Let me tell you a story since i am in the condition of "nothing to do".
Hassan is a government worker, he graduated with his SPM
Li Li is a clerk, she graduated with her STPM
Nathashia is a handcraft producing CEO, nice name, she graduated with her PMR
John is a lecturer, he graduated with his master in Marketing
i used to be thinking, can i be a good girl "only" in stead of being a "doctor", "lawyer", "professional", and i get my answer during my consideration for at least 2 years, can't!
i have been questioning myself atleast hundred times what i will do when i know someone is cheating me. 2 years ago, i will say, "I hope this is the last time for you, take what you want from me, and don't cheat anymore", after he cheated me. Nowaday, i will not allow anyone has the opportunity of cheating me.
Last few day, my sister told me "pity right, the old man standing there, he is so old until it's a tough thing for him to stand, can we just go since we have had our dinner?" Do you know what i said? i said "but aunty and baba haven't finished their chating yet, not good to speak out your opinion" WHAT AM I TALKING? Then my sister said, "last time, you will be the one saying what i have said, and this is what i learned from you, LEARN TO PITY AND LEARN TO GIVE!"
WE SHOULD HAVE PITYING SENSE AND GIVING WITHOUT REPAID! It used to be my life rule!
but nowaday, i learned SURVIVE
Hassan is a government worker, he graduated with his SPM
Li Li is a clerk, she graduated with her STPM
Nathashia is a handcraft producing CEO, nice name, she graduated with her PMR
John is a lecturer, he graduated with his master in Marketing
i used to be thinking, can i be a good girl "only" in stead of being a "doctor", "lawyer", "professional", and i get my answer during my consideration for at least 2 years, can't!
i have been questioning myself atleast hundred times what i will do when i know someone is cheating me. 2 years ago, i will say, "I hope this is the last time for you, take what you want from me, and don't cheat anymore", after he cheated me. Nowaday, i will not allow anyone has the opportunity of cheating me.
Last few day, my sister told me "pity right, the old man standing there, he is so old until it's a tough thing for him to stand, can we just go since we have had our dinner?" Do you know what i said? i said "but aunty and baba haven't finished their chating yet, not good to speak out your opinion" WHAT AM I TALKING? Then my sister said, "last time, you will be the one saying what i have said, and this is what i learned from you, LEARN TO PITY AND LEARN TO GIVE!"
WE SHOULD HAVE PITYING SENSE AND GIVING WITHOUT REPAID! It used to be my life rule!
but nowaday, i learned SURVIVE
OMG, i am being "Negative Minded"
OMG, i hate living, living in this stupid aimless life
OMG, i hate to be someone in competing for stupid success
OMG, i hate to decide what i dislike
OMG, i am not in others' shoe
OMG, i am "a piece of cake", means too easy to mention, i am noone
OMG, chinese makes my life worse or i have changed?
DYING.... DU,DU,DU,DU,DU
and hey my dear lissa, i miss you so much, yes, i am out of direction too, but at least you got someone to take care you, me? none? invisible in this world! OMG!i am transparent? can't believe! i thought i can be someone and i always put a lot of effort to become someone but ... she was right, my dear teacher, "being yourself makes life wonderful", i don't think i can make it
OMG, i hate to be someone in competing for stupid success
OMG, i hate to decide what i dislike
OMG, i am not in others' shoe
OMG, i am "a piece of cake", means too easy to mention, i am noone
OMG, chinese makes my life worse or i have changed?
DYING.... DU,DU,DU,DU,DU
and hey my dear lissa, i miss you so much, yes, i am out of direction too, but at least you got someone to take care you, me? none? invisible in this world! OMG!i am transparent? can't believe! i thought i can be someone and i always put a lot of effort to become someone but ... she was right, my dear teacher, "being yourself makes life wonderful", i don't think i can make it
How Useless I Am ?
First, i got a lot of stupid goals making myself feel unhappy
Second, i like to think a lot of useless stuff
Third, i can't do what i want to do
Forth, i am lack of confidence as well
Fifth, i am not a good girl across my adolescent period
Sixth, i won't say what i want to say
Seventh, i wish to be super in my lifetime, in fact, i can't
Eight, i always in dreaming
Nineth, i am too useless, it's considered as wasting time in introducing me
Tenth, i am noone
Second, i like to think a lot of useless stuff
Third, i can't do what i want to do
Forth, i am lack of confidence as well
Fifth, i am not a good girl across my adolescent period
Sixth, i won't say what i want to say
Seventh, i wish to be super in my lifetime, in fact, i can't
Eight, i always in dreaming
Nineth, i am too useless, it's considered as wasting time in introducing me
Tenth, i am noone
Wednesday, 2 January 2008
ChrisMAst DoN'T bE laTE - Alvin and the Chipmucks
(Dave:)Alright you Chipmunks, Ready to sing your song?
(Alvin:)I'd say we are
(Theodore:)Yeah, Lets sing it now!
(Dave:)Okay, Simon?
(Simon:)OK
(Dave:)Okay, Theodore?
(Theodore:)OK
(Dave:)Okay Alvin?...Alvin?...ALVIN!!!
(Alvin:)OKAY!!
(Chipmunks:)
Christmas, Christmas time is near,
Time for toys and time for cheer.
We've been good, but we can't last,
Hurry Christmas, Hurry fast.
Want a plane that loops the loop,
(Alvin:) Me, I want a Hula-Hoop.
(Chipmunks:)
We can hardly stand the wait,
Please Christmas don't be late.
(Dave:) Ok Fellas, Get ready.
That was very good, Simon.
(Simon:)Naturally!
(Dave:)Very Good Theodore
(Theodore:) He He He He
(Dave:)Uh Alvin, You were a little flat
So, watch it, Alvin...Alvin?...ALVIN!!!
(Alvin:)OKAY!!
(Chimpunks:)
Want a plane that loops the loop,
(Alvin:)I still want a Hula-Hoop.
(Chimpunks:)
We can hardly stand the wait,
Please Christmas don't be late.
We can hardly stand the wait,
Please Christmas don't be late.
(Dave:) Very good boys
(A Chipmunk:) lets sing it again!
(Another 1:) yeah lets sing it again!
(Dave:) no thats enough, lets not overdo it.
(A Chipmunk:) what do you mean over do it!?
we wanna sing it again!
(dave:) now wait a minute boys.
(Start Aruguing)
(Alvin:)I'd say we are
(Theodore:)Yeah, Lets sing it now!
(Dave:)Okay, Simon?
(Simon:)OK
(Dave:)Okay, Theodore?
(Theodore:)OK
(Dave:)Okay Alvin?...Alvin?...ALVIN!!!
(Alvin:)OKAY!!
(Chipmunks:)
Christmas, Christmas time is near,
Time for toys and time for cheer.
We've been good, but we can't last,
Hurry Christmas, Hurry fast.
Want a plane that loops the loop,
(Alvin:) Me, I want a Hula-Hoop.
(Chipmunks:)
We can hardly stand the wait,
Please Christmas don't be late.
(Dave:) Ok Fellas, Get ready.
That was very good, Simon.
(Simon:)Naturally!
(Dave:)Very Good Theodore
(Theodore:) He He He He
(Dave:)Uh Alvin, You were a little flat
So, watch it, Alvin...Alvin?...ALVIN!!!
(Alvin:)OKAY!!
(Chimpunks:)
Want a plane that loops the loop,
(Alvin:)I still want a Hula-Hoop.
(Chimpunks:)
We can hardly stand the wait,
Please Christmas don't be late.
We can hardly stand the wait,
Please Christmas don't be late.
(Dave:) Very good boys
(A Chipmunk:) lets sing it again!
(Another 1:) yeah lets sing it again!
(Dave:) no thats enough, lets not overdo it.
(A Chipmunk:) what do you mean over do it!?
we wanna sing it again!
(dave:) now wait a minute boys.
(Start Aruguing)
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