懒～

report 还没写好，可是就是想懒懒的！整天只吃了一个（只需要叮三分钟的）汉堡包 （有够肥！可是却是离开家远远的“浪子”最方便的“便当”）；肚子饿饿的

今天miss了一堂课的说，我没有偷懒，只是找不到课室的说（学校太“大”了=_=）

原来学校有两个school of earth and environment，map上却mark着一个；走了很远很远，中间迷路了十五分钟、再绕了一个大圈的说；到了那个faculty已经是40分钟后的事！在那间小小的school上上下下，终于忍不住随便进了一个人的office问她什么什么课室在哪！西方人都很怕遇到东方人似的，很紧张地回答着我的问题！

然后她说：“不好意思要你走了这么远！你要到的地方离这里很远很远” 打开了google map，这里指一指，那里指一指地告诉着我我的课室在哪！

它，就在离我accommodation五分钟的地方！我却用了45分钟不懂在做什的！为了确定下次可以上到课，去了课室再直接回家！

我还想写呢！>.<

我又笑了；用着长大后，一旦遇到挫折后，爱笑的方式笑着！是因为我在逞强吗？是因为我害怕别人的取笑吗？怕输吗？

那天，我妹投诉说，她不爱读书；投诉说，她没有我这么历害；投诉说，。。。
原来我一直以来都不太爱让别人知道我的悲伤；原来我都不太爱让别人陪伴我彻底输了的时候；也不太爱别人知道完全的自己（所以在这也不讲了）

我朋友的朋友被抓了！那天我朋友听了一个关于Cuba prison的讲座！那天我经过学校时看到Gaza的起义! 那天我跟我accommodation来自非洲的cleaner，给他冲了一杯咖啡，聊了很久！那天我朋友告诉我非洲几个国家的纠争！那天我朋友讲了Jew and Palestine！（没什么，就想炫耀下自己很历害，听了很多东西的说）

我又用了一个小时；不要问我为什么我打华文字这么慢可是有死都要打华文字
这就是我=.=！

很paiseh 的说，用了一个小时也不知道打了什么

I want to BLOG

I have a lot of things that I would like to share

I want to share: (this part is too long, skip it, dont waste your time)
1. how crazy was my exam and what had happened during my exam
2. the songs that motivate me to keep going during the exam and the words that relax me before I got into the exam hall
3. the foods and the cakes that I made during my exam
4. how did I feel after my exam
5. what had happened after my exam and how's my next morning after the exam
6. how did I celebrate after exam and how sad I was one of my closest coursemates in Leeds went back to Japan
7. what did I do durng chinese new year eve
8. what did I do on Chu Yi
9. what did I receive during my exam
10. what did my friends give me when they left Leeds
11. where's my chinese new year biscuits
12. how did I feel during chinese new year
13. what did I bought within last few months

A LOT to go!!!
But,, my chinese typing was so slow and it costs me two hours to write a (normal-length) post!

成熟

成熟？当每个一样年龄的人都重视它时，你会不削地说：“所以？”
我全班第一名呢～所以？
我有很多个朋友；所以？
我谈恋爱谈了六次；所以？
我薪水有六个数字哦；所以？
我从国外回来的；所以？
我老公是工程师；所以？
我在欧洲找到了工作；所以？
你没有读大学啊；所以？
我好像很多人喜欢呢；所以？
我的电脑是最新的那一款；所以？
我会做这个那个；所以？
我现在读着博士学位；所以？

Young Kid darlings, study hard o, don't use this as an excuse o!

我在两天前差点就这样永远睡下去；永远醒不来！I am serious o, no Joke here darlings!

要为我朋友的朋友“祷告”一下（很久没祷告了，自从婆婆去世以后！因为我把自己最后的祷告给了婆婆、让上帝好好地照顾她！）可是还是想祷告一下： As what written in my friend's personal message,
"freedom for farag" (her friend) who's a Palestine, was caught by Jewish soldier when he was walking on the street and doing nothing! 280 people were killed in the Aerial Bombing happened on 27th Dec 2008 when most of us were celebrating Boxing day! 婆婆说：“祷告了后要说：感谢耶苏，阿门”！
I wasted few hours keep searching news and information about the war between Jewish and Palestine, I havent started my revision yet! =_= and... this is ME!!


Credit to Tore Kjeilen at http://i-cias.com/e.o/fpalswar.htm

Poser

Ya ya, I am a poser :P kekekeke accept your friend as a poser !! haha~

Exam @_@

Let me spare a 10-minute to leave some words here~
In order to eliminate everyone's confirmation bias on caucasians,or what as called "Ang Mou (s)" among us, today I would like to announce the discriminational idea that "Asians can always do very well in their school work because Caucasians are not as hardworking as us" is incorrect! =_= many of them study overnight(S) before they get into the exam hall! And I am appreaciate that my two SUPER coursemates gave me the strength to keep going although I was so tired.

Ohya, today I saw my "ou ji sang" coursemate forgot to bring his eraser and it reminded me about my first test at HELP Uni (novelty = reminiscene bump? haha~ Ya, I will always remember especially when I get older) ~ I lost my pencil case and I went into the exam hall with nothing~ Luckily, my very nice friend, HMS, borrowed me her pencil, she got two only though! ANd And .. She splited her new eraser and half for me! Thanks ya ~ ^^ I was so touch, and today, I planned to do the same thing to my "ou ji sang" coursemate but I was not allowed to stand up and go to his place (what an excuse @_@)~

The end ~

T_T episode 2

Tomorrow~ Paper~ Edu ~ I ~ Dyslexia ~ SEBD ~ COP ~

Can I make a wish before I go to bed?

I wish : "..."
I scare ~ T_T ~
Really really scare~
but I always pretend to be ...

T.T

Autism : The Wall That Knows No Limit

I posted an article a week ago about autism,and "自闭＝不爱说话！" was written in that article~ This definition is (just kidding) inaccurate as, besides talking and communication, Autistic patients do have other disabilities as well (of course, they have their own strengths, such as calculating, drawing and etc.)
Enjoy the video below if you are interested in Autism Specturm Disorder or you are currently studying Educaitonal Psychology ~

恩妮亚

Ennia (恩妮亚):
自己给你取了一个华语名tim! 还记得我一直对你说的名言吗？“你自己曾经付出的努力，就是你自己的成绩表！不管老师报告的成绩有多烂，你这一个月，甚至一年的努力都没有白费，因为你就是你，你已经做了你可以做的所有，最后只能接收上天所给的innate的自己了！”

自己最近好像也在迷路了！就那几天！谢谢老师的那通电话。

很高兴这次你很勇敢地作出了一个根据自己想法的决定，我以你为荣！

“我是因为喜欢读书而读！我喜欢读书时找更多的资料自己灌！我喜欢在读animal behavior时不停地在youtube看到底动物是怎样这个那个的！我喜欢把每个动物的样子都找出来！还记得我读biopsych的时候，把没有关系的资料统统灌进去，然后考试时：忘了这个leh!虽然没有拿到自己应该拿的成绩，可是我乐！读书时的乐～那种读了又想再看的兴致～” （自己在“卖”自己）

恩妮亚，真的很高兴你长大了；你没有忘记我的话，而且你比我还勇敢地去做选择！人，没有一定要走的路；可是人，可以选择当下是乐还是悲！当你的姐，就只希望你享受你喜欢“活着”！

世界太大了！有很多故事都是重叠的；有很多路都是看着别人而选的！你害怕选择是因为你害怕“怎么跟亲戚朋友解释” 呢？ 害怕“在你真的选错路后被曾经劝你这个那个的父母、朋友，说你“你看你看，我都说你要这样的啦，你啦，扮聪明自己做选择！”？还是怕你的人生是一个失败的人生呢？你都在害怕吗？可是你知道在你痛苦于做选择的当下，有人死于车祸，有人死于饥荒，有人唱歌拿到奖，有人做完了一份报告，有人被你“心情不好”时的一句话跟其他人吵架，你父母失眠了，你最亲爱的偷偷在哭！你是那么的，“小”！记得不要在你害怕怎么跟别人解释的当儿把你不用向他解释的人给弄哭了！

成就吗？成就就是你小心过马路，晚上活着回到家跟爸妈吃晚饭！（我想吃我妈煮的晚饭 ><）

完！
写华文要好久!Sien

最近清醒了许多，决定SummerHoliday一定要回家！不管找到工作没！谢谢爸爸妈妈要我回家 ^^ 很高兴他们不惜三千多马币都要我回家！就让我做败家的女儿吧！^^

Before and After Exam

I never like Miss Winnee's teaching method and the way she treats "some" students because she never allow "ME" to ask related question before any trials or exams and after the trials and exams, she would say:"find the answer yourself" =_= (it means, I "blank" the answer sheet)

I not dare to ask questions anymore.. and this is one of the reasons I like Uni of Leeds

p/s: Personal "Top-Down" + "Bottom-Up" Result..

怎么会不小心地想念着你！

T_T

Since yesterday 5am till today 5am, slept for 2 hours in between, *_* have been awakening for 22 hours and I cant sleep now though ~